It is one thing to loose a loved one to old age or slow sickness. But when it is a tragedy it adds a whole new dimension to the process. A process that includes grieving, accepting it, moving forward and often times the process of forgiveness. And somehow in every situation involving this, God and his diety and purpose are always questioned by those affected by whatever tragedy has happened. And often times those surrounding the victims or loved ones of the aforementioned feel the need to try and explain "why God allowed this to happen" or at least their take on it. And so many of those people try and back up their nonsense assigned bull shit "plan of God" with scripture.
On November 15th, 2010 with the pull of a trigger my Aunt Vicky was swiped from life. A 17 year old boy made his way from 120 miles away on a lost mission from hell and murdered her while she worked at a local convenience store. And he didn't stop there. He drove from there 20 miles south to another community and performed the same vicious act on another convience store clerk. The little shit made his way here with a Jeep and weapons stolen from his parents lake cabin. Stoned out of his mind, he walked in, loaded gun in hand, pointed it at their head and demanded cigarettes and cash. Despite the fact that they oblige his demands he pulls the trigger. First killing my aunt then an hour later killing the next lady.
I am sorry but the only conceivable explanation for a life scene this disgusting is evil. Pure straight up evil. There is and should not be some bull shit line about "why God allowed this to happen" that should EVER be given to someone who suffers a loss like this. Let the loved ones cries to God as to why be just that, cries. In situations like these I believe God is a listener not a talker. If you look at scripture the times where God talks to people is when he is asking them to change not when they are grieving. This kid that commited these terrible acts had lived his teenage years filled with trouble. Drunk driving charges, vehicle theft charges, narcotics charges, domestice charges and probation. You name it he had the book thrown at him. And if you look at his life. All of these were choices. Choices he made based on his free will God permitted him to have from day one. Again I say evil is the only possible explanatin for this. For God to be reponsible for this we have to remove free will from the equation. And free will was obviously present here. Nobody made this kid steal his mom's debit card and Jeep. It was a choice. Nobody made him drive to the family cabin 70 miles away and load up on guns. It was a choice. Nobody made him drive 120 miles and pull that trigger. It was a choice.
It's hard for me to fathom the emotions of the victims children. Hell they are the real victims now. And yet it is even hard for me to recollect the range of emotions I personally went through that night and the days that followed. I do however vividly remember the events leading up to that night though. It was a Monday night and I had bowling league in Humboldt the community in which the second shooting took place. We left the lanes at 9:50. Sheila Myers was shot and killed at 10 p.m. It is eery to me knowing I passed that piece of garbage on my way home. After being home for 10 minutes 2 police cars flew by my home at what had to be 120 mph headed towards Algona. It wasn't but ten minutes later they flew by headed in the other direction towards Humboldt. Obviously they had gotten word of a second shooting. At 10:35 I got a call from my mother that the Algona victim was Vicky. I almost felt wrong doing what I was about to do but I was overcome with my concern for her and my impatience so I had to call a good friend who works on the EMS crew. I called her and asked her what she knew. She was not working at the time but heard it all unfold over the air waves. She told me they had put in the call for a life flight helicopter and then her and I conversed for a few minutes about who Vicky was and then she let me go. Not more than 10 minutes later she called me with the news that the life flight had been called off and that Vicky could not over come her injuries and had passed. The gun shot to the face and loss of blood was just too much. She lived long enough to give police a description of the vehicle and events and long enough for her sister and some of her kids to be by her side before she gave up the fight.
Vicky left behind 11 children. That's right 11 children. Are they asking God why this happened? Of course they are! But do they ask hoping for an answer from him or some self righteous blithering idiot who thinks God fits in their little box? Or is it possible that they just cry out to him because he is indeed a God that listens in situations like these and doesn't talk. Her children are left with the process of grieving, accepting, moving forward and yes forgiveness. To forgive or not to forgive. Sadly free will has to be inolved here. And forgiveness has to be a choice too.
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