I can't quit you.....

You are ever consuming. I fall asleep next to you every chance I get.....and when the sun, peeking through my eastern window reminds me that the dream state is temporary...I turn to you at that waking moment. I can't keep my eyes off of you. Be it working, be it watching television, be it reading, be it with friends or be it alone. Your company it seems is all I desire. And when you are at your lowest point in each and every day I do whatever it takes to give you new life. I could never let you die. I would crawl to the ends of the earth to keep you going. I have tried.....I've tried to imagine my life without you and it seems I could not go on. I can't even fathom how I existed prior to our pairing. Hell, I even tried living my life without you. I tried quitting you...leaving you...letting you be a thing of my past and finding my dependence elsewhere. But it was too hard..I relied on you too much. You always kept my interest.....always turned my attention toward you. You have never let me down, never hurt me and never left me. It would seem to others from my endless devotion and love for you that we are meant for each other. And maybe they are right. I can't live without you. I just can't quit you. I am hopelessly devoted to you. My cellphone. This is obviously a satirical view of society's love affair with our electronic devices be it cellphones, IPads, tablets, laptops computers and televisions. They often garner more attention from us than our jobs, friends, children and spouses. It's a sad fact that I myself am far too guilty of many times.

"you may say I'm a dreamer. But I'm not the only one"

It's as if at times my dreams are like fire and I am consumed by them. Have you ever watched a movie that had a profound impact on your emotional state but can't remember half the details? I dream of places. Roads, buildings, oceans and beaches. I see street lights and cars with no makers. And I see people. But there is almost always one central figure in each dream. It's never the same person. Its a new character, different from nights past. But it is always a person from my everyday life. Someone I am close to. And for some reason there is only one recognizable person from my life in each dream. The rest of the cast is unrecognizable. I've had people tell me they don't dream......I don't believe them. Ever been traveling, headed somewhere you have never been and seen a place you dreamt about? Identical in every way! Same building, same color, same windows, same cars parked in front. Line for line board for board down to very last detail. Right down to the way the sun casts shadows on the scene or the way the moon glows and reflects on every object that receives her light. My mind tells me this has to mean something. I search for and assign meaning to an abundance of things in my life. I've had these so called déjà vu moments many times. And as hard as I've tried none of these specific places have ended up having any relevance at the time I arrived there. I've woke up from dreams hysterically laughing. I have woke up crying. I have woke up with intentions of writing the dream down in the morning.....only to forget it. And I have woke up headed to the dresser to grab pen and paper only to forget the details in the short time. Dreams are adventures. Drama created by our minds. Dreams are therapeutic. A way to prepare for the day to come and let go of the day that was. Dreams are dangerous. For they can bring fear and apprehension. And bring false hope. Dreams are worthless. Dreams are essential. Dreams are meaningless. Let them go and all your dreams will come true.